I was sort of dreading this week’s Substack. I’m new at this and a little nervous about sharing so much of myself. I told myself - just write. You don’t have to publish it all, but just see what comes out. And as I’m writing this last bit of text, I’m actually so thankful for this space to reflect and put words to things I’m subconsciously thinking and feeling. I hope it’s encouraging to you!
What I’m Focusing on
Right now I’m focusing on being patient and breathing. There are a couple of situations in my life that are bringing me outside my comfort zone (one being what I’m about to tell you below), which causes me to come up with all the worst-case scenarios (Enneagram 6 here). The thing I’ve learned is: the part of me that does that - that thinks of all the ways something can go wrong is just trying to protect me from being hurt or disappointed or caught off guard or any number of negative feelings. That part of me is trying to do a good thing, but if not kept in check, that part can cause me unnecessary anxiety and negative thinking. So I’m focusing on noticing when that part is activated, breathing deeply, and then kindly thanking that part for caring about my wellbeing and telling it to take a break because I’ve got this. If the worst happens, all of the worrying won’t make it any better or easier, so all I can do is trust myself and know no matter what happens I’ll be ok. And as my friend Melissa always says, what if it all works out?
What I’m Up Against
Remember how last month I told you I’m considering having a baby on my own?
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